these shoes are 300 dollars

these shoes are 300 dollars

these shoes are 300 fucking dollars

LETS GETEM

I guess I should put pants on, huh?

She’s such a fortunate fool.  

Anyway yeah time for guitar and singing.  Be jealous.

you motherfuckers only WISH you were lonely broke and unemployed.

cuz if you were all of those you’d be a boss like me.

i hate my life.

fuck everyone.

i love you.

it really is funny how much time i waste on pointless broads.

they can suck it.  

i’m not even gonna try.  i’m just gonna do whatever the fuck i want.

it’s not like you’re interested anyway.

fuck you.

you know what’s weird?  how masturbating has gone from like something that happens in 30 seconds to something that’s an hour long ritual.  

everything has to be perfect, the candles, the music, the porn, the fleshlight (i wish).  it has to all be set perfectly.  and then i have to find the perfect video to spray to.  

yeah that’s right i said spray.

i’m not even drunk i just say what i want.  

this is me giving a fuck.  OH WAIT

i fucking don’t care.

so… commence the masturbation ritual!

You people can text in your fucking sleep?  Bombs go off and I’m still snoozing away.  My brother called my 4 times this morning to wake me up and in my sleep I reached over and silenced my phone 4 separate times.

So in conclusion, I don’t sleep text :).

THAT IS ALL.

So I’m giving up online video games.  I have a bit of what you would call addiction in my life.  Drugs, Alcohol, Video games.  

It’s like a constant battle with myself.  These next few weeks will be tough.

I guess tumblr is nice because I can say whatever the fuck I want because I can’t do that on my facebook.  Too many people I’m friends with that would judge me.  That kind of defeats the purpose doesn’t it?

So that’s what’s going on lately.

The bright side is I’ve been making music much more and I am becoming more sane.

You’re all drama queens and I hate all of you.

Trolled.

There are some things I would like to say.  Well, to be honest, I’d like to scream them, but I’m not sure that would do me any good.  So, I will just put them down on paper - err… tumblr. 

Nothing seems to satisfy me anymore.  I want things to be better.  I miss having a videogame that I really enjoyed, something to look forward to, some girl to talk to, SOMETHING. 

It’s funny that playing a one-time favorite game of mine, League of Legends, makes me mad.  It’s an arena style tower-defense game, where you control one character, called a champion, with abilities and basically, try to work together with your team to kill opposing champions and destroy their turrets and base.  The games typically last anywhere from 20 minutes to over an hour.  I decided to spend the last little bit of time left in my night playing a match of this game.  I used my level 15 account so I wouldn’t be matched against max-level players, hoping this would make it more of a fair game.  My team had two newer players, possibly Brazilians, famous for being terrible at the game and laughing “HUEHUEHUEHUE” when they died easily to the other team, giving them more money to spend on upgraded armor and weapons, called feeding in the game.  No matter what I did, pinging on the map where we needed to defend, asking them to help me at a tower, trying to play defensively, and take advantage of the other team’s mistakes, we still lost. 

I hate going to bed on a losing streak, it’s such a letdown.  Almost as if the game is only enjoyable if I win.  That sounds rather childish really - but it’s true, noone likes losing.  None of the few friends I made while playing the game are online or seem to play much anymore, so I rarely feel like playing.  The same goes for World of Warcraft, which is why I did not renew my subscription last month.

So what now?  Spend time playing guitar?  Play the same 3 songs I know?  Look up other songs that are most likely more difficult and that I probably can’t play?  Probably not, that’s discouraging. 

Noone’s really awake. 

What about Facebook?  That’s a whole other animal.  Facebook used to entertain me.  I’d get on there, read everyone’s statuses, look at girls I thought were cute, it was like a nice little thing to do throughout the day.  It has now become more of, “Let’s read everyone’s predictable statuses.  I enjoy being bored, doing nothing, and truly wasting time on Facebook.”  I think those days are over.  I don’t know where all the funny and entertaining people went. 

I’m about to lose my mind.  I need a new hobby.  Seriously, I’m pretty much bored of all the videogames I have, or uninterested, or don’t have that much time to commit to them.  I’ve watched all the episodes of Californication that are out.  Finished Dexter, How I Met Your Mother, Weeds, The League, basically every TV show that I’ve been watching.  I have to wait for them to come out with new ones.  I prefer TV shows because I don’t usually have time to commit to watching a whole movie. 

What happened?  Why am I so bored an unhappy?  I sound like one ungrateful son-of-a-bitch.  Really I’m just at a loss here.  Bored and disinterested with almost everything in my life. 

DEARRRR WOMEN,

You, my sweet, pretty, friends, are getting more and more out of hand.  I was once told when i was little that women mature faster than men.  BULLSHET. 

A friend of mine went to visit a girl who he’d been talking to for years.  They both expressed interest in each other, and had talked about visiting each other for a while.  When he went to visit (via plane), he discovered she was dating/all over some guy.  So… why ask him to come visit?  So she could get the satisfaction of seeing him be upset about it, have him waste his money, and be uncomfortable for a few days in another state.  And then her best friend was there to shrug and say “well i guess they’re pretty in love”.  Harsh.

Then another buddy of mine was dating a girl for about 6 months.  She told a mutual friend that she was wondering when he was going to pop the question.  A week later, he is awoken by disturbing news that she no longer wishes to be with him, and is instead going to get back together with her ex.  Again, I ask, WHAT THE FUCK?

I actually had the pleasure of experiencing my own WTF experience with a girl.  So, my roommate was seeing this girl, I guess she thought it was a relationship and he just thought it was casual.  Somewhere along the line, he decided to start seeing other girls and treating her bad enough that she found me on facebook and messaged me, explaining that she was having issues with him.  We talked back and forth and became friends.  She would call and talk to me and mostly complain about him and I would tolerate it because we were friends and I would try to help give her advice.  After a few months of this, her receiving criticism - from her other friends as well as me - for still hanging out with him, she still kept doing the same things.  One night, she called me crying about him, and I helped her get through it.  She said she appreciated it and that she knows that hanging out with him is bad, all of her friends and her family insist he’s bad for her.  The next day, I’m in the kitchen making a sammich, and she follows him out of his room and leaves.  I briefly said hey, walked with the sammich to my computer, deleted her from facebook and off my phone.  Some girls never learn, and they’re supposed to be more mature. 

Looks like my sources were wrong.  Please grow up.  Kthxbai.